I really am thinking that this might be a good place to begin maintenance. It isn't that I don't want to lose 20 more pounds. I do. But the more I concentrate on it, the more binging I do. And I just don't want to put my body through that anymore. I don't want to put my mind through it either. And I especially don't want to put my soul through it anymore.
I am afraid of this. But I want to see if I can do it. If I lose more, cool. If I don't, I am actually quite happy where I am. I would be happier to maintain in another 5 or 10 pounds - over the 180 lip and securely into the 170s. But this is less than I have been in so many years I don't even remember the last time I weighed 180. So, lets call it good. And stay here. And stop worrying. And give my soul a rest.
God knows, I have enough on my plate without driving myself nuts trying to be perfect.
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