So tired of this

I am so tired of doing this.  I do well on my eating program, then BAM! something triggers me and I binge.  This time it was a box of food that I bought from a friend who was finished with Medifast.  There were singles of things I really like - like s'mores crunch bars, some Kay's snacks, and a few other things.  Well, I ate them ALL last night.  Again, this morning, I am back on Day 1.  I am back on track.  But I am also in mid-carb hangover.  My body feels icky.  My mind is cloudy.  I am depressed. And I have a green cloud around me from the gaseous emissions coming from my body.

I will be fine for 2 more days, then I have 2 boxes of food coming in with some bars I have never tried.  This company also includes free samples - often bars of some sort that I can just grab and shove in my mouth.  I will be really really tempted to take a bite of each different bar that I ordered.  Sigh.  I will try to avoid it.  I hope this will be the time that I don't go for it.

So, ok.  Day 1 (again) is almost done.  I am looking through my food and finding that I have food in my "stash" from the beginning of my Medifast journey.  Some of it has already expired, which just means that the vitamins may break down a little.  That's fine - I take a multi every day.  I also realized that I have enough brownies and chocolate chip soft bakes to eat nothing BUT those for more than 2 weeks.  I'm not going to, but I could.  I have a bag of 19 brownies/soft bakes that are expired in July or fixing to expire this fall.  I will get to eating those, although they are not my favorites.

I have been swinging around the 180 mark since May.  It is now September.  My new goal - to be solidly in the 170s by the end of the month.

What am I afraid of?  Let's just get 'er done!