Feel the Fear and Do It ANYWAY

March 2013

I have been on this journey for some time now - 6 years, to be exact.  And while I have lost 56 lbs on TSFL, it has all been weight I lost before.  I "reclaimed" it, if you will.  But now I am heading into uncharted waters.  Unmapped territory.  And I don't mind saying, I am terrified.  I'm not entirely sure what I am afraid of - perhaps it is simply the unknown, but it feels deeper than that.  However, my usual response to this place is to eat until my weight is back in a zone that I know.  And I am realizing how often I have "let the fear take the wheel and steer" (thank you Incubus).  This song has been nagging at me for some time now.

"Sometimes I feel the fear of uncertainty stinging clear
And I cant help but ask myself how much I'll let the fear take the wheel and steer
It's driven me before, it seems to have a vague
Haunting mass appeal
Lately I'm beginning to find that I should be the one behind the wheel
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there
With open arms and open eyes yeah
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there, I'll be there "

NOW I understand the value of a coach.  It isn't that she has all the answers and I have none.  She simply comes along side of me at times like this, when I'm not sure where to put my feet next,  and tells me  "you know how to do this".  She reminds me "that I should be the one behind the wheel".  She whispers in my ear, even when she isn't in contact, "I've got your back, girlfriend".

So, on this beautiful sunny day, I will step out in courage.  I will feel the fear and do it anyway.  And I will remind myself:

Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there
With open arms and open eyes.