What, Exactly, Do I Want?

June 10, 2012

How badly do I want this, and what exactly do I want? A poser.

I want to healthy and strong. Well, I already am that. I want to eat cleanly. I already pretty much do,

When it comes right down to it, I want to wear my white denim skirt again. I want to be proud of myself for what I have accomplished. I want to be that woman who lost 100+ lbs. I want to DESERVE my WW award and my red leather jacket that I bought when I lost 100 lbs.

These things are tangible and achievable. True, they are not deep soul changing goals. But they are my motivators. I keep trying to want something a whole lot more important, but it is what it is.

I want to wear my old small wardrobe. I want to be that person again. Sometimes, our goals are silly to others, but important to us. As much as I would like them to be more substantial, this is what it boils down to. Yes, I understand that the skirt is a symbol of something larger.

My white skirt.