Thoughts for today: I was a skeptic at the beginning of this program. I committed myself to 1 month. I lost 12 pounds the first week, so I stayed. And the food was acceptable. I never expected, nor do I WANT, to find the food "yummy good". I don't WANT to love it. I don't WANT to find ways to make it "oh so good". I don't WANT to have a month's worth of binge-able foodstuffs at hand. I want to take my mind OFF of food and ONTO my health. If eating packets of sawdust would get me there, I would do that. I am working to change what I WANT from expecting "yummy nummy goodness" each and every time I put something in my mouth to something more substantial. I am changing my WANTS. I WANT to be able to walk in the sunshine for as long as I feel like it. I WANT to be able to be happy, sad, frustrated, bored or any other emotion without the need of numbing it, or celebrating it, with food. I WANT to be one of THOSE people.
So,if you are questioning it, look at the program as a prescription, which it originally was. Use the food as a tool and find your "joy" (if you need to find joy in your food) in your L&G. And keep in mind - food is not supposed to be our friend, our comfort, our relaxation, our de-stresser. We need to find other avenues for that. We need to mourn our previous relationship with food with all of the stages of grief while creating a new one. We need to be working TOWARD our goals, accepting that our bodies will never be like everyone else's.
And I, in particular, need to GET that my body will never ever react in any other way in the presence of too much "yumminess" than to lay down extra layers of fat.
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