The Wagon Ran Over Me

May 2013

Ok, I not only fell off the wagon, but I sat there and let the wagon run over me.  I have been on a bender since Saturday afternoon.  I didn't weigh this morning, but as of yesterday, I was up more than 5 lbs.  From Friday.  Today, I feel like..... well, I feel like I sat there and let the wagon run over me.  This, after writing a blog about how I refuse to do violence to my life.  Well, I did.  Wrote it and then did exactly that.

Today is a new day.  One of a million start overs in my life.  I do realize that there is no such thing as "cheating" on this process.  It is my journey, regardless of which direction I am going.  What I did yesterday can't be undone, atoned for or erased.  Yesterday was part of my journey toward today.  I have to accept it and let it go.  Easy?  Lord, no.  Not a whole lot about this journey is easy.  But it is doable, and a valuable lesson in living in peace.

Today, just today, I will eat one meal at a time.  Every time I think about eating something that I didn't plan for, I will ask myself "is this in MY best interest or not?" and proceed from there.  And, this evening, while in bed reading, I will eat only that which has been planned for.  Nothing more.

Then, once I have conquered today, I will work on tomorrow.