Sick Cycle

April 2013

I was just out walking the dog, building up endurance for my 12k walk next month.  I have my MP3 player going in my ears the whole way because I can't do anything without music. This song came on and it made me think about the Yo-Yo cycle so many of us find ourselves on.  The song is "Sick Cycle Carousel" by Lifehouse.  Of course, not every word is pertinent, but much of it is.

"If shame had a face I think it
would kind of look like mine
If it had a home would it be my eyes
Would you believe me if I said I'm tired of this?
Well here we go now one more time ...

I tried to tame this mind
You better believe that I tried to beat this

I never thought I'd end up here
Never thought I'd be standing where I am
I guess I kinda thought it would be easier than this
I guess I was wrong now one more time

So when will this end? it goes on and on
Over and over and over again
Keep spinning around I know that it won't stop
Till I step down from this for good.

Sick cycle carousel
This is a sick sycle, yeah"

I don't know about anyone else, but this could an ode to the day after a binge.  To the yo-yo cycle that I sometimes find myself in.  But the truth is in there "I know it won't stop till I step down from this for good".  This is my focus - finding a way to step down from the sick cycle carousel for good.